Hey Everyone!
So in light of this past weeks reading about fear, and the psalm passage that rocks me every time.. whom then shall I fear, I need to get real with all of you. I have been avoiding posting on the blog lately because I feel afraid to share my real thoughts. I feel that because this is my third summer with Sonshine that I need to have some super spiritual deep insight into everything and how it will play out this summer. Truth is guys, I don't. I feel so lost with God right now. I don't know why He is doing some of the things He is right now, and I am just really frustrated at that. The thing is, I have just been letting this hide because I worry what the rest of you all will think upon hearing that. But if we are going to be a team, serving these kids, then I need to get real with you guys. This is how I am feeling.
I am terrified about this summer. I am also really really excited. I'm scared that God is going to break me of my old ways that I cling to regardless of the abundant life that He is handing to me. I fear so many things right now, and I am just sitting in the dark with a flashlight in my hand not turning it on! How silly of me. God is right there and that light is so easily available... so why am I not taking it ?
-Haley
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