Hmm it seems as if God is attempting to show me everything that I struggle with BEFORE I leave for the Delta. Maybe I am to attempt to rectify these issues before the Delta, or maybe even during? Regardless of what is to happen with my acknowledgement of my issues, I feel like I need to, in some way, understand them more before I am fully able to attempt to change them (granted that just might be the Psychologist in me speaking.)
This chapter on weakness and strength almost caused an unpleasant taste in my mouth. I hate being weak, being taken advantaged of, and being manipulated. Granted many past relationships have caused this response in my life to become almost second nature to be distrusting and guarded towards everyone I meet. It's almost unthinkable for me to be weak in order to be strong. I mean that is why I play video games, it's a way of coping with my own mental and physical weaknesses. Although in a way this chapter was able to help me understand that I need to be more trusting of God.
By the end of the chapter I being to feel comforted instead of discomforted with this issue. I realized that in those moments of doubt, when I'm feeling all alone, and I think that no one can see me, God is still there and He is being my strength for me.
Sorry I got so deep about these topics you guys! Can't wait for Memorial Retreat!
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