Broken Hearted

Dear Friends,
I have been having a rough last few months from starting a new job that is the most challenging yet rewarding job I have ever had and also burning out at the same time. Ever since I started this new job in March, God has been molding and shaping me in the fiery furnace of His workshop. However, the story I want to share happened this past Friday and was, as they say, the straw that broke the camels back. I have been having many amazing conversations with my non-Christ following co-workers, and many have left me broken hearted. This last Friday, I was working and my co-worker told me his boyfriend is another co-worker and he showed me a picture of them. He knows I am a follower of Christ, and he said that I am the only person that knows out of all of his friends and everyone at work and for me not to tell anyone. So it is interesting that he chose to tell me..he must be attracted to something (aka JESUS). He had the biggest smile on his face when he was talking about how much they love each other and how they treat each other. He said he is the happiest he's ever been. He asked me if I was okay that he told me, and I said of course, and told him that I was happy that he has found something that makes him happy.. And he told me that I am the first "religious" person he has ever met that is loving and that isn't going to judge him for his choices in life. We can share with each other our personal beliefs or non-beliefs, and respect each other which is very unique and I treasure this mutual respect.. However, on the inside, my heart was breaking.. my heart breaks for this love that he and my other co-worker have found in each other because it is a cheap version of love..this love is twisted and disguised by the evil one as true and lovely. My heart breaks for them because I desire them to know the perfect, full,and complete love of Jesus. I talked to my pastor yesterday about it and he told me to look at John 4: the woman at the well. Jesus talks in this passage about the water that will come back empty and always quench our thirst and then Him as the living water which will quench our thirst for eternity.
My prayer for Josh is that every avenue he tries to find love and fulfillment in will come back to him empty, quenching his thirst for more. I pray that he would realize the only water that quenches his thirst is Jesus.

Also, this quote makes me think of this cheap love and how it blinds us from knowing any greater love that is the love of Jesus:

"If we consider the unblushing promises of reward … promised in the Gospels, it would seem that our Lord finds our desires not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at sea. We are far too easily pleased."- C.S. Lewis  

Also, this quote:
"Sex, of course, is not the only drug that intoxicates and numbs the mind to spiritual reality; the same can be true of money and career and power and romance novels and soap operas and TV advertisements and fishing and coin collecting and computers and rehabbing and gardening. The point is: know what numbs your mind to God and avoid it. Stay sober for the sake of full and passionate hope in God’s grace." -John Piper  

EVERYTHING ELSE BESIDES JESUS WILL LEAVE US THIRSTY. As we are a team this summer, I just wanted to share this struggle with you all and to pray for me to perservere in the love of Christ with my friendship with Josh. I want to not approve and people please with people that have different beliefs, but show them the love of Jesus through being a friend and respecting them. Jesus has placed me in such a beautiful and unique place in my relationships with my co-workers and even though it is a hard road, I am thankful because every day I am getting the privilege to show Jesus to them.