This weeks devo's have been so cool/challenging in being an every-day thing. It's been so cool being able to take a step back and look at the basics of the ceremonies and Tabernacle's. How cool it is to remember that it is God who pours into Jesus, Jesus into us, and us into each other/our campers. How cool it is to remember that our God wants to guide us, not just drop us off somewhere. And for me, how cool it is to be utterly convicted by just one statement (or two).
"He is WORTHY of our impassioned worship. HE is worthy of our impassioned love." (110) (Johnson)
This stopped me cold in my tracks Wednesday night. I couldn't go on, because if I tried, I was blinded-I wasn't really reading anymore. I am told, over and over again, "there is nothing I can do that will make God love me any less." And I believe that, I truly do. That WE are worthy in His eyes. But, is God? Is God worthy of our worship? Is God worthy of our love? And my initial answer was no. I didn't believe that He could be anything near worthy of MY love. And this really confused me; that I felt this way, this heartbroken. I desire to call Jesus my best friend, but why do I feel that I fall short in loving God? In praising him? Not even through my acts, but through my passions, thoughts, and heart.
Tonight, I finally gave in. I sat down in quiet time with Jesus-something I have been avoiding for 3 weeks, because I was scared of this: Jesus ripped me apart, leaving me raw and broken at the foot of His cross. He revealed such an unloved, ugly, sheltered part of me I had no choice but to willfully give it over for him to heal.
It got real raw, real fast. And as you're reading this, I pray that Jesus reveals to you what has been on your heart to give up to him..whether it's something you're bound to, hiding from, or hiding Jesus from. Or whether you're just plain scared of letting Him take it ALL. I invite you all to embark on this journey with Jesus and allow it to get real raw, real fast. Please don't wait until you're standing on the roof of a houseboat worshipping Him, or breaking down with your coordinator or director. Let Jesus, the Son of Man, who was crucified to have a real relationship with you, break you NOW. If He can dig deep into us now, imagine how much deeper He'll be able to in the summer?
Jesus is alive.
Jesus is here.
Jesus is now.
Love you all.
Julia
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